So I wrote a big woe is me post last night and had every intention of posting it today. The kind of post where I complain about lost dreams and dismal futures. All that is still relevant of course, but i got derailed. Ironically, in many ways, my day has only gotten worse since yesterday.
One reason is because the vet came out today. Apparently Walker is having a reaction to his anti-swelling meds. Apparently he can only pick up his head or put it down so far. He's currently back on the Do Not Ride list, and he's getting turned out again to help with swelling.
I can't decide which is worse. The fact that my horse is now worse off. Or the fact that I had no idea that the vet was coming. Neither he nor my barn owner told me. Nor did she or my vet call me to tell me all this. I only found out when I texted my trainer to ask if he looked a little better from yesterday. I'm missing my lesson tonight so if I hadn't asked, I wonder when they would have bothered to tell me.
I just called my barn owner and left her a message. God forbid she pick up the phone even though she is likely there. Tomorrow I will be calling my vet.
My horse is sick and no one can bother to pick up the damn phone and let me know!? I don't care if they're doing everything they can for him. If there are decisions to be made and information to be shared, I should be making them and receiving it.
I'm at the point where I'm seriously concerned about Walker's well-being and I'm starting to question the people supposedly caring for him. My barn owner is annoyingly dismissive about pony problems. If he's shaking, he's just shivering. If he has swollen nose, he just bumped it. Well, clearly this was not the case. But now I'm starting to question my vet who, by the way, is the only equine vet in the province. I think he's very intelligent and blah blah blah, but I think he's too much in the pocket of my barn owner. I'm afraid he has the wrong impression of me. I'm afraid he misunderstands my intentions, which are quite simple: I will pay whatever the hell I have to pay to get my pony better. I will ship him to the goddamn moon if there are competent people who could treat him there. I don't want guesses and surmises when we can do tests and get answers.
A sad worried Natalie is not a lot of fun. But a worried angry Natalie is a force not to be reckoned with.
I'm really sorry that you are going through this :(
ReplyDelete:( As someone who just went through a lot of vet BS - if you have another way to get a 2nd opinion and your gut tells you that a 2nd opinion is needed - go get one. Good vibes your way!
ReplyDeleteI can't decide. Unfortunately, my only other option would be a second opinion of a large animal doctor (who probably mostly sees cows). That was my first vet during my emergency call. It was clear very quickly why a specialist is important. I believe that my vet is very competent and could help me. I think I just need to cut my barn owner out of the process. As gently as I can. She is vindictive.
DeleteHow far are you from NS? Can you take a day trip with a trailer and come over here? Lots of equine vets in NS, fortunately.
ReplyDeleteAbout two hours from the border and without access to a trailer other than my barn owner's (who I'm assuming would be unwilling to go against my vet).
DeleteBut now that I know that, I will file it in the back of my mind for after my next conversation with the vet
Sorry you are dealing with this. I would be very frustrated too.
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